Lately I have been struggling with some questions (nothing new). I have realized that I have bought into the spiritual teachings that say you have to always be happy, reach for the highest vibration and not focus on sadness, pain, and other “lower” vibrational feelings. But, what if those feelings are still there no matter how hard you work to be happier and a higher vibration? My response in the past has always been to get angry at myself and see it as a failure, a fatal flaw which I possess that doesn’t allow me to be as good as them—those that are in that permanent state of bliss.
Perfect Pain
But what if all of this, including the pain is perfect? What if feeling the pain is exactly what I am meant to “do” right now? What if when I keep pushing it away it drives the pain deeper into my body only becoming physical illness, pain and disease? What it all comes back to, and the only truth I can find in all of this mess of questions, is LOVE.
Love is the Answer
Yes, loving and allowing all parts of me the “good” and “bad, “ the spiritual and not so spiritual is the only way through to the other side. I am not a bad or less spiritual person just because I am feeling this deep grief for the physical loss of my son. I was put here for this experience for a reason and just sugar-coating it and pushing through it is not giving it the justice it deserves.
So What About Law of Attraction?
I believe the law of attraction exists. I also believe that we can’t fool the Universe. If we are truly in pain, we need to accept and honour those parts of ourselves that need more love, not less. That doesn’t mean we curl up in a ball and give up. It simply means we make the time and space for all parts of ourselves and allow ourselves to heal. Maybe we don’t need to be in such a rush all the time to get to the best, most happy place. Maybe by being where we are, and loving what it, we are already making space for more bliss and miracles.
In loving even the dark parts of ourselves we allow light to shine into those cracks and shadows. Let’s take time to honour and love all of those parts of ourselves that need attention and, by doing so, become more of who we are meant to be.
Much Love,
Karin (Peace Goddess)
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