Month: July 2018

FINDING MEANING IN THE MADNESS Sometimes I just feel like screaming, “Why!” In that moment I really want to know the reasons behind everything that has happened in my life. As if knowing why would release me from the pain. Well, in the moment, I feel like it would. I’m swinging constantly between allowing the […]

Tomorrow is my son Matt’s second birthday in Heaven. As I write this I feel a multitude of emotions. Strangely, I am not feeling overly sad. At this present time I am just integrating all of my experiences over the last few weeks and even overn the last 4 or 5 years. What I want […]

I think one of the biggest insights I’ve had in the past year and a half is the knowing that, no matter what is happening or what I am feeling, all I need to do in the moment is love that. I’ve had a good week, actually a great week, visiting my favorite ocean destination […]

  I have been surviving. I’ve been moving through each moment, each hour, and each day. I’ve been carefully hiding my feelings and only allowing them to come out in private, all the while thinking that no one knows how I truly feel, who I truly am. The pain of losing my son often feels […]